a. violet

i'm losing myself.

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 07:41:00 -0800

I’VE LOST MYSELF.

what happened to the strong, funny, intelligent girl i once knew? i’m falling into the pit of conformity just like every other 16 year old teenage girl. i’ve always prided myself in being the girl who people could look up to as the one who could get through anything, the girl with the not so great past who turned herself around. what am i now? what is there left? i’ve distanced myself from my true self. i’ve let matter take over mind, and where am i now? before i would never let a guy, my friends, anyone influence my emotions, my choices, my lifestyle.

i feel disillusioned.

where did i go?

i'm thankful

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 13:44:27 -0800

for everyone and everything in my life.

through the ups & downs,
i wouldn’t trade it for anything.

RIP timothy

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 16:31:40 -0800

holy crap i can’t believe you and chad are both gone on the same day… you guys were way too young. <3

RIP Chad. <3

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 16:02:15 -0800

We will forever miss you and love you.

yesterday was fucking dramatic

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 08:42:49 -0800

through the “fuck you’s, beating up my best guy friends, get the fuck out of my life, all of the drugs, everything” i still can’t help but like you still. i deserve so much better, i know that. but i can’t help it.

hi im so popular..

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 23:44:51 -0800

hi im so popular..

i got a 2090 on the SAT.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 06:03:05 -0700

im… satisfied. but i want that 2200

SAT SCORES ARE COMING OUT TOMORROW

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 19:58:22 -0700

D: D: D:

so what if it hurts meso what if i break downi just wanna be happy <3 i love this song

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 02:50:29 -0700

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
i just wanna be happy

<3 i love this song

life is good.

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 21:06:46 -0700

life is really good, actually. my friends are amazing, i’ve met a lot of new ones & my relationships have gotten stronger. dance is going great. school is actually pretty fun. my grades are good, i like most of my teachers and they like me. things are going good in the family too. life is good. normally, i would be so happy and have no regrets, worries, doubts in my head in a situation like this. but the only thing missing is YOU. i know its probably stupid and puppy love and i’m only 16 but fuck it i don’t care.

you’re always on my mind, i compare every guy to you but no one compares. this sounds fucking lame but it kills me that i see you online and you don’t talk to me. it’s always been you. always. i’m trying to get over you but i don’t want to. you’re such a douche but i don’t fucking care i want you and only you. its been you this whole time.

IN N OUT SOUNDS FUCKING AMAZING RIGHT NOW

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 23:56:33 -0700

IN N OUT SOUNDS FUCKING AMAZING RIGHT NOW

why is it that i need you way more than you need me..

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 00:39:46 -0700

somebody to love - leighton meester ft. robin thicke

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 23:49:47 -0700

somebody to love - leighton meester ft. robin thicke

lookbookdotnu: nightwatcher ahh i want her eyes. and her tights!

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 23:07:50 -0700

lookbookdotnu:

nightwatcher

ahh i want her eyes. and her tights!

oh my this was megan fox… LOL

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 21:40:04 -0700

oh my this was megan fox… LOL

all i wanted - paramore brand new eyes is amazing <33

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 18:12:05 -0700

all i wanted - paramore

brand new eyes is amazing <33

i am seriously thinking about buying this life size cutout of...

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 18:25:20 -0700

i am seriously thinking about buying this life size cutout of edward LOLOL.

tumblarity: 201 => 78 . tsktsk.

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 17:12:39 -0700

omgwtflj:

anababyy:

(via yasmingordoshah)

its ok mine went from 260 to 8 in 2 weeks LOL.

gah, i wish i had your tumblarity -_- wanna switch?

LOL why would you want your tumblarity to be 8?

tumblarity: 201 => 78 . tsktsk.

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 17:05:58 -0700

(via yasmingordoshah)

its ok mine went from 260 to 8 in 2 weeks LOL.

kinda awkward..

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 17:03:53 -0700

kinda awkward..